Friday, June 05, 2009,
There are 2 ways for me to think of the current turmoil.
1) Sit back, and enjoy looking at yourself giving yourself that name.
or
2) Reflect on a possible way out.
I choose 2.
Whether you wanna read on from here is entirely up 2 u. I'm not forcing it upon u.
Do you remember on your birthday this year, I gave you a no-condition 'treat' that you can have 3 songs every month from me FOC?
I didn't ask for anything in return, b'coz I believe you are a really smart person, who's only 'weakness' is your temperament. In other words, it's not that hard to solve the problem.
But even when I have given you such an offer, you suddenly do stuff dat makes me suspect you again. I don't want to, I hope to just close a blind eye and pretend nothing happened, but I can't. Is songs that important to you?
My reason for giving you songs is in the hope that you will be more open to us and to possibly control yourself from flaring up easily, no more no less. Yes, it is in every person's greed to ask for more, but in the real world, this is something we have to control. We can only have so much, so we'll take it as it is, not find unconventional means to get more.
What you did really stunned me, forcing me to take a step back. But your subsequent reaction totally upset all of us.
Have you seen yourself lately? Once you get angry over matters, you vent your anger on others too, especially the innocent young 1. What's the worth, rite? That wouldn't help you get anything either rite? I'm always open to suggestions and definitely improvement. To me, you definitely can.
It didn't stop there. On the day of the incident, the mere mention of no songs for this month pissed you off. Why? Why? Why? Sometimes it's good to stop and reflect 1st, then accept the fact that we have missed out something.
I didn't ask for anything materialistic in return, I don't want anything in return. All I ask for is for you to be as carefree as the younger 1.
If giving you all the songs I have can solve your temperament problem, I willingly give it all away to u.
Think carefully before you reply me, because promise is a really big word, and what you're promising will be the biggest and most honest promise you'll ever give to anyone.
Think of not the profits from the number of songs, but of the responsibility coming from both you and I.
Whether you think I'm just putting up a show here or not, I can tell you it's from the bottom of my heart. The believing part I have no other choice but to leave it to you.
Hope to here from you soon.
Can't keep on loving you
from a distance...
08:26
