Suddenly, a gush of 'arghhhh' overwhelms me...I still ain't comfortable wiv dat~~~
Can't keep on loving you
from a distance...
22:23
hahax i'm so bored now, i actually went 2 look at these. xD
Long tiring, yet great day 2day though :D :D :D
When your crush comes to you with problems about the guy she likes, and you help her out even if it kills your chances, merely to put a smile back on her face...
When you don't have to be with her every second of the day, but you want 2...
When every face she makes, be it ridiculous, pretty, or juz plain silly, fills a certain space in your heart...
When you hear your phone has a text message and you run to it hoping and praying it's her...
When she looks back right after walking away from you...
When it's us against the world...
When he thought it was best they split coz they're too different, she respected it and let him go, even if he hurts. And after months, they realised that they were meant so much to each other, and it juz hurts too badly, they decided 2 make it work. They decided to live on love, and that's all that matters. Nothing else should interfere. And they're back together...that's love.
And now for my own, her tolerance for mi boringness :)
Can't keep on loving you
from a distance...
20:58
Wednesday, December 30, 2009,
We alw hav long, slow goodbyes, coz we can't bear 2 say it? :D
Or mebbe we're juz so so random~ xD
Can't keep on loving you
from a distance...
21:42
Tuesday, December 29, 2009,
2 b honest, now I don't even care if you're gonna pin all those on me, I just wanna help to forget, put the past behind.
Can't keep on loving you
from a distance...
18:28
Testing five days, which made mi realise one thing actually. One main thing, rather.
Since I'm one who isn't really good with words, it further helps when the long travelling journey brings me 2 songs dat can express wad I'm feeling best. :D
"But I figured out with all that's said and done...two, is better than one."
Coz when I close my eyes and drift, away
I think of you and everything's ok, I'm finally now, believing
Maybe it's true
That I can't live without, you
Maybe two
Is better than, one
But there's so much time
To figure out, the rest of my life
And you've already got me coming undone
And I'm thinking two, is better than one
Can't keep on loving you
from a distance...
13:45
I don't wanna go, another day
So I'm telling you exactly what is on my mind
See the, way we ride in our, private lives ain't no, body getting in between
I want you to know that you're the only,
One, for me (one for me)
And I say
Nobody gonna love me better
I must stickwitu forever
Nobody gonna take me higher
I must stickwitu
You know how to appreciate me
I must stickwitu my baby
Nobody ever made me feel this way
I must stickwitu
And now, ain't nothing else I could need
And now, I'm singing coz you're so so into me
I got you
We'll be making love endlessly
I'm with, you (baby I'm with you)
Baby you're with, me (baby you're with me)
So don't you worry about, people hanging around
They ain't bringing us down
I know you and you know me and that's all that counts.
Can't keep on loving you
from a distance...
13:35
Monday, December 28, 2009,
You are my coffee. :D
Can't keep on loving you
from a distance...
22:40
When you realise dat u're shut out from each other's world for 5 days, no form of communication at all between u 2, and all dat u hav is a memory of d person, u realised it's not dat crazy of kua1 zhang1 after all. ;)
Can't keep on loving you
from a distance...
22:15
Wednesday, December 23, 2009,
I wanted 2 go, coz one of my wish...is to see someone I wanna see on d 2 days of Christmas. :)
But I can't~ Dat's y it's dat disappointing. :(
Well, I'll be away to Ipoh till Monday. No idea what internet there is there. So we'll see how, my readers.
Think of me
Think of me fondly when, we've said goodbye
Remember me
Once in a while, please promise me you'll try
When you find, that once again you long
To take your heart back and be free
If you ever find, a moment
Spare a thought for me
Can't keep on loving you
from a distance...
21:53
If you'd have to wake up at 3am or something to go away, I would b there. :)
Can't keep on loving you
from a distance...
20:56
Tuesday, December 22, 2009,
I didn't have any form of communication 2 u on my way back, dat I even exhaled in2 d charger area, hoping dat bit of heat can revive a little of my hp battery.
Dat was the extent I'm willing 2 go 2 get a reply.
Can't keep on loving you
from a distance...
21:24
Rather than saying u're gonna exceed soon, mebbe u shld tink of ways 2 curb yr sms-ing.
Say, sms ppl u reli wanna sms? And reply when u need 2 only?
If your answer 2 dat was everything, den I can't help u.
If you cannot choose, den I also can't help u.
Something small which u can help yourself without my help.
But you need the will before you can have the way.
Can't keep on loving you
from a distance...
19:37
I do have 1 gift, but I don't think the others can giv it 2 mi.
And it's not expensive either ;)
Can't keep on loving you
from a distance...
12:09
Monday, December 21, 2009,
I seriously think I've lost a side of me already.
And I think today, I learnt that I hate the word 'orh' :S
Can't keep on loving you
from a distance...
22:07
I've told you things that I'll never tell anyone at all, not even an extremely good friend, nor a crush.
Go see means haven done so. Ok.
Can't keep on loving you
from a distance...
19:17
Sunday, December 20, 2009,
WHEN YOU FIND YOU, COME BACK TO ME. ~Come Back To Me by David Cook
I feel those ways (upset, worried, lose control....) b'coz I hate myself for making you feel bad.
Can't keep on loving you
from a distance...
22:08
Whether he still meant anything, I don't know. I don't wanna know.
Thing is, he's doing it, and I'm not happy at dat.
How u wan 2 settle this, it's up 2 u.
Doing things for more than just oneself~ Anonymous
Can't keep on loving you
from a distance...
20:35
It's all in the mentality. It's all in the head. As long as u can get over yourself, dat's more than good enuf fr mi. :)
Love you just the way you are :D,
Aloovi the Alv
You know you need someone, when the need's so strong
When they're gone, you don't know how to go on
So the whole, world is stuck, in a moment
Standing still, until they come back
Can't keep on loving you
from a distance...
09:16
Saturday, December 19, 2009,
I don't know how much I actually hurt u today. I'm sorry.
I just wanted u 2 noe, just wanted u 2 b safe, dat's all.
A normal reaction to feel dat way~
You're not dumb, it's just...things happen. You've never had someone do this 2 u, rite? And u're not d person looking at wad's happening, rite? So u had no idea wad was going on around you. At least, now u noe.
If I ever hurt you, it's not my intention. I'm sorry.
Can't keep on loving you
from a distance...
21:33
Friday, December 18, 2009,
Dat may have been THE MOST against-my-conscience thing I've done in my entire life,
but at least I've gotten an answer.
Can't keep on loving you
from a distance...
23:12
There really is a lot 2 learn about me still.
I'm really really hard 2 understand, I think.
Can't keep on loving you
from a distance...
22:27
It's been so long since I ever wrote in my diary, coz I have been telling the whole world about everything in my life. Well, it's time to take it out and pen down. I'm not gonna say much here, b'coz I know people are watching. I don't want people to see any of this.
All I can say is, it's a normal reaction to feel that way.
Back like you never broke
You tell a dirty joke
He touches your leg, and thinks he's getting close
For now you let him, just this once
Just for now
Just like that, it's over
Don't turn away
Dry your eyes, dry your eyes
Don't be afraid
But keep it all inside, all inside
When you fall apart
Dry your eyes, dry your eyes
Life is always hard
For the Belle, of the Boulevard.
Can't keep on loving you
from a distance...
20:14
Thursday, December 17, 2009,
As much as I may "please" my way in2 getting an answer, if people do not want 2 reply, den it's up 2 them. At times, I rather people don't answer me than to answer for d sake of it.
I'm really happy that u're so optimistic. But I'm sorry, dat's me. I hate myself 2 force people 2 do anyting against their will, even if they were doing it for me. Thing is, I don't want things 2 juz benefit me~
I don't see any winners, only 2 ppl who both lost.
2 words...can make so much difference, cause so much, n take d whole day by the neck...
I "kayz" when I'm happy, and "k" when I'm not. I don't have a middle, I'm 2 extremes. Either very happy, or very upset.
It is not a flaw of yours. It's just...something I hope you can understand about me. Sorry. :(
I was thinking about tomorrow, now I can't even get through today.
I don't wanna go back
To just being one half, of the equation
Do you understand what I'm saying?
Can't keep on loving you
from a distance...
17:16
Wednesday, December 16, 2009,
I seriously don't know what I'm doing tonight.
I think i just slashed 2 in one night. What the hell is wrong with me?!?!?!
Can't keep on loving you
from a distance...
23:33
Tuesday, December 15, 2009,
another day, another day.
Can't keep on loving you
from a distance...
22:33
Sunday, December 13, 2009,
Wad's done is done. You didn't mean or even imagined it'll affect dat way and 2 dat extent, so dun kip blaming yrself. It's not making you or others feel better dat u keep blaming yourself for not doing this, doing that in the 1st place. Regret yes, but don't think of punishment as if exacting revenge back on you is what others want.
Regret, instead, 2 internalise, and move on.
--- inspired by _________ :D and myself. ;)
Can't keep on loving you
from a distance...
22:55
Saturday, December 12, 2009,
By affecting my mood a lot, I meant anyting I don't understand wad'cha say, I look back. Anything I'm unhappy with, I'll look back at wad we both said in d convo.
And think about it always.
1. Don't wanna talk 2 u, b'coz I scared I can't control myself when I do. Sorry.
2. I'll remember u saying dat. How you wanna handle it, is up 2 u.
3. YOU'RE NOT AS BAD AS YOU THINK YOU ARE. You yourself said it's you who nv feel lyk u are, so face it, the battle's not with anyone else. It's with yourself.
4. You affecting my mood, I dun tink it's scary at all. Why should it be?
5. If it was reli suppose 2 b, you shld alr b thinkin bout wad I meant by you-know-wad. If by d tym u see this then u realise, then...I seriously duno how to put it. Probably, you know better.
6. There are still other stuff I still can't get over, which I don't wanna say it here.
It's gonna take some time to get it right.
I hope u understand.
At least, from 2nite, u knew where I was getting at about dat incident dat's been playing in my mind.
Thanks.
(I think you know who u are alr. Anything u wanna reply, do it on msn)
Remind you that, you're beautiful
I know my detail requires more attention
If I ever hurt you, it's not, my intention
Coz we're gonna make (gonna make), our mistakes (our mistakes)
Find out how much your heart can take but
I know that, you got my back
And baby I got, yours
Can't keep on loving you
from a distance...
22:12
Friday, December 11, 2009,
One more shot.
If I hit, it doesn't rebound back 2 me, then that is it.
Can't keep on loving you
from a distance...
22:11
Ever felt like a toy before?
I realise I reli hav changed a lot. It's juz...so many things are happening now. I can't even be myself now.
I don't even noe wad is myself. >.<
There are some things not say forget can forget 1, thinkin' it's a done deal. It takes time, sometimes a lot of it. And sometimes, more than that. Sorry~
Who would have thought you have 2 extreme feelings in d space of one day.
2nd worst day.
The worst thing in this world is not seeing a reply that makes u sad, but when there is NO REPLY.
Can't keep on loving you
from a distance...
21:28
Seriously, the phrase "Back where you started" is an awesome awesome phrase.
Enough said.
Can't keep on loving you
from a distance...
16:29
Thursday, December 10, 2009,
I'm tired...
of waiting.
Why am I worried when you're not worried?
Can't keep on loving you
from a distance...
20:23
Wednesday, December 09, 2009,
It takes 2 hands to clap, it takes 2 for something to happen. But it also takes both sides 2 learn 2 giv in 2 one another, dat's d key. ;)
It's about thinking more fr d other party than yourself.
Think of me
Think of me fondly when, we've said goodbye
Remember me
Once in a while please, promise me you'll try
When you find, that once again you long
To take your heart back and be free
If you ever find, a moment
Spare a thought for me
I realised for d previous Christmases, I've been asking fr gifts with exorbitant prices. But this year, I'm different. To be honest, someone asked me recently what do I want for Christmas, and I replied with the same few gifts with jaw-dropping prices. These few days I have been thinking bout what I really really want. And I think I've got that figured out.
Expensive gifts don't work on me anymore I think, what I want is something inexpensive, yet it will be forever valuable to me. I want...
Can't keep on loving you
from a distance...
10:55
Don't turn away
Dry your eyes, dry your eyes
Don't be afraid
Oh keep it all inside, all inside
When you fall apart
Dry your eyes, dry your eyes
Life is always hard
For the Belle, of the Boulevard
Please hold on, it's alright
Please hold on, it's alright
Please hold on
Can't keep on loving you
from a distance...
09:08
Tuesday, December 08, 2009,
Wow...looking at Man Utd's 19-man squad against Wolfsburg (a team in Germany), you can't help but get worried.
Everyone, who is a Man Utd fan, has been talking bout it...Just wad kind of Man Utd will appear against Wolfsburg???
So, i went to do a little research (very little, actually :P) and decided, mebbe I should come up with mine. :D
1stly, GK. Whatever the back four, you need a keeper who isn't jittery, who can giv confidence to any young back four in front of him. Since Van Der Sar did not travel, next in the order is none other than Tomasz Kuszczak. To be honest, I still don't understand why Ferguson still likes Ben Foster despite the obvious choice coming up with great performances so far.~~~
Let's skip the back 4 1st and go on from the front.
I reckon the front 2 will Michael Owen and Danny Welbeck, just to give Mr Owen some much needed playing time. Getting old luh sum1 :P But I'm still curious why Macheda didn't travel to Germany. :(
Now for the midfield. I don't think Oliver Norwood nor Cameron Stewart, nor Magnus Eikrem, nor Matty James (nvm if u've nv heard of them xD) will get a starting place. They'll probably be thrown into the fray if Man Utd were leading comfortably...possibly the last 10 mins or so ba. ;)
As for those who are playing, I hope Darron Gibson and Anderson gets a place, so as to protect the very fragile back four. :S Darron Gibson should play slightly in front of Anderson, coz he packs a great shot. ;) (Maybe Anderson in CDM, Darron in CM? something lyk dat~) The left and right wings will be played by Nani and...Ji-Sung Park. Time to show what you can do, Nani. Either you shape in, or ship out!!! You know, we hav Gabriel Obertan ready if we think u cmi. :P Obertan just needs a little bit more time, i hope.
So you'll have reliable subs in Antonio Valencia and Paul Scholes, in case they're needed. I think Scholes play better when he gets 2 watch the 1st part of the game, den he come on...he can read the game better that way. ;) Valencia...ever consistent. :D If they're not needed, great! Extra rest for one lao3 ah bei, and another who has been playing week in, week out. ;)
Ok now for the tricky tricky 1. I was actually thinking of resting either Michael Carrick or Darren Fletcher, but it looks like I hav 2 throw both into the fray. I reckon Fletcher will retain his right-back slot, and Evra on the left. I still don't understand how come ppl are thinking of turning Evra into a centre-back. Yea he's a defender, but centre-backs need to win headers leh, and Evra's not vry tall, and not good at heading either. So left-back it shall be. :D
Now for the big big gamble. I think other than Michael Carrick in defence, he'll be partnered by Oliver Gill. I believe Ferguson will give this guy (who is the son of some senior-executive in Man Utd's working staff) a chance. Besides, wad do man utd hav 2 lose, eh? :D
Therefore, the final 11 that I've come up with is...
Kuszczak
Fletcher GillCarrickEvra
Anderson
Gibson
ParkNani
OwenWelback
Subs: Foster, Eikrem, Scholes (in case), Valencia (in case), Gabriel Obertan (half in-case xD), Matty James, Cameron Stewart, Oliver Norwood
I hav a reason for playing Gill and Carrick in their respective places. Although it won't really help much, but at least I think every midfielder who is playing in defence will at least have some sort of help from a defender. So yea...i'm good. ;)
Nice right? almost look like chelsea's diamond-formation XD I think I can be manager luh...i pick the players then ask sum other manager do team talk fr mi. :P
Still, I want to know why Ferguson didn't bring De Leat (a left-back) to Germany, and instead blood even more youngsters, who are midfielders. -.-
Sneaky plot?
Can't keep on loving you
from a distance...
10:03
Monday, December 07, 2009,
Choices is the same as standing on a crossroad. You choose a path, you walk to the end. If you turn back, you know by then it would hav gone dark already.
If you want to skip to the other path, you'll have to build the path yourself, because there is no road connecting d 2 paths. If not, bare thru d pain barrier of walking in forest treks with lots of sharp twigs and stuff.
Think about it.
Someone once told me, that you have to choose
What you win or lose
You can't have everything
Can't keep on loving you
from a distance...
18:42
Sunday, December 06, 2009,
Say what you like about this guy, but no doubt, Chris Brown can really really dance. I can very safely say, this guy is already the closest (or mebbe even better) we have to MJ. He is the next generation ba~ ;)
Juz watch the video and see the hand-thingy dat he did. Does he even hav bones in those 2 arms?! XD
N ya, the specs looks weird. -.-
But for everything he has done, he's obviously sending a CLEAR MESSAGE to Rihanna thru dis vid. It's so obvious in the video who he's trying 2 show, even d blinds of the blinds can see it. Rich girl being swarmed with photographers even when getting on a car? Duh it's showing Rihanna!
Oh uhh thru dis video, I think I can infer that he is trying 2 make up with Rihanna, yea. :S But it takes 2 hands 2 clap, and I doubt Rihanna would want another round of you-know-wad. XD
Somehow, the imagery of Rihanna leaving the court looking VERY PROUD during the hearing of Chris Brown's 'conviction' and Chris Brown looking really guilty and remorseful comes 2 mi mind all of a sudden. Who's right or wrong? I still think the question ain't exactly solved.
Back to serious business, there has been stuff that I ponder a lot these few days. And most of them aren't really happy stuff. :( I think I juz made another person upset, did i? I think I did, because I've let sum1 down. Maybe that's why d person doesn't wanna tell me. Please don't keep things to yourself, please.
Precisely why,
am I doing this right still?
Choices? Who are we to call for choices? -.-
Things shi3 zhong1 have to be said...
It's juz a matter of time.
Everybody see it's you
I'm the one who lost the view
Everybody says we're through
I hope you haven't said it too
So where, do we go from here
With all this fear, in our eyes?
And where, can love take us now?
We've been so far down, we can still touch the sky
If we crawl, till we can walk again
Then we'll run, until we're strong enough to jump
Then we'll fly, until there is no end
So let's crawl, crawl, crawl
Back to love, yea
Back to love, yea
Why did I change, the pace?
Hearts were never meant to race
Always felt the need, for space
And now I can't reach your face
So where, are you standing now?
Are you in the crowd of my vault?
Love, can't you see my hand?
I need one more chance, we can still have it all
So we'll crawl, till we can walk again
Then we'll run, until we're strong enough to jump
Then we'll fly, until there is no end
So let's crawl, crawl, crawl
Back to love, yea
Back to love, yea
Everybody sees it's you
Well I never wanna lose, that view
So we'll crawl, till we can walk again
Then we'll run, until we're strong enough to jump
Then we'll fly, until there is no end
So let's crawl, crawl, crawl
If we crawl (oh), till we can walk again (till we can walk again)
Then we'll run, until we're strong enough to jump
Then we'll fly (yeah), until there is no end
So let's crawl, let's crawl, let's crawl
Back to love
Can't keep on loving you
from a distance...
12:22
Friday, December 04, 2009,
HAHAX i duno how many ppl actually reli as addicted 2 music as I am, but if you go to d iTunes store (UK) --> Music Videos, lying at the 170th position is this song.
BIG FISH LITTLE FISH by BOB THE BUILDER!!!
wth! -.-
Can't keep on loving you
from a distance...
18:09
Thursday, December 03, 2009,
The more you keep, the more I keep.
It's not doing either side any favours.
Can't keep on loving you
from a distance...
09:41
Wednesday, December 02, 2009,
Maybe I'm wrong for being wrong. -.-
Somebody give me a sign, please! Stop making me ponder whether i'm right or wrong!!! >.<
Can't keep on loving you
from a distance...
22:35
Dedicating this song to myself, and 2 other ppl. Hopefully it helps.
Hopefully, you 2 know where I'm driving at.
The colours mean something, I hope you all could get it.
And sorry to one.
It's been like this since I can remember when
Your questioning, and answering
You're always talking to me like I can't relate
When all I want to do is to communicate
You were meant to be, someone else
I look at the, pictures of me and you, we're smiling
Tell me what happened to, the times when,
We understood each other, yeah.
All I need, is a little bit of,
Space to breathe, and a little bit of
Freedom, to be who I wanna be
Let me be me
Love means learning to let me go and
Spread my wings, you let me grow and
Live life, you gotta let me be
Let me be me
You tried to teach me lessons but you suffocate
Always setting goals that I don't wanna make
And I'm tired of it, sick and tired of it
And it feels just like we're on a one way street
It's only half where we gotta meet
Oh, we gotta make it back, yea.
Can't keep on loving you
from a distance...
18:27
It's hard 2 believe that something is true if it can't be explained or named.
Feeling, is one thing no one and nobody can CHANGE in this world.
Everything I think I am, I'm not.
Being a temporary shelter isn't the same, at all.
Close my eyes and move to the back of my mind
The worries are washed out to sea
See the changes people's, faces blurred out
Like sunspots or raindrops
Now all, those feelings, those yesterday's feelings, will all, be lost, in time
But today, I've wasted away
For today, is on, my mind
Left the only worries I had in my hands
Away from the light in my eyes
Holding tight and try not to hide how I feel
Coz feelings mean nothing
I can't care to worry,
I'm feeling so lonely
Breaking apart all this love in my heart
Look through and u'll probably understand what is reli d crux of the situation.
A word's juz a word, til u mean what u say
And love isn't love, til u giv it away
I really ain't doing this right.
If this was a true one, I wouldn't be the one who's hurt the most, because 'people' don't know what just hit 'them'.
Another day has gone
I'm still all alone
How, could this be
You're not here with me
You never said goodbye
Someone tell me why
Did you have to go
And leave my world so cold
Everyday I sit and ask myself
How did love slip away?
Can't keep on loving you
from a distance...
17:08
Tuesday, December 01, 2009,
Am i really doing this right?
why do things have 2 come when u don't want to, when you're doing something else? Dilemma.
More time? Harbouring hopes? What am I sitting on, huh?
Sometimes a compromise gets u to nowhere in life, because u're neither here nor there.
Someone up there seriously is trying 2 toy wiv me, isn't he? -.-
The comparison was immediate, even the blind can see.
There is a reason why lovers and friends have different spellings.
So really, am I doing this right?
Don't you love in vain, coz love won't set you free.
Can't keep on loving you
from a distance...
22:45
LIVE HIGHwith
♠♣
ÄLVìπ.R∞Ñεy.
VÎÐi¢. fLeTcHeR. pArK
♣♠
Name's Alvin Teo KS >.<
nicknames: Alv, Elf -.-
or aloovi (dun ask y)
tualv Oct '93
(take a deep breath before looking down)
- Adele
- Alicia Keys
- Avicii
- Backstreet Boys
- Black Stone Cherry
- Blue
- Boys Like Girls
- Bruno Mars
- Carrie Underwood
- Christina Aguilera
- Danger Radio
- Darren Fletcher!!! - Daughtry
- Emeli Sande
- FABER DRIVE!
- Hedley
- IMAGINE DRAGONS!!! - Jesse McCartney
- Lawson
- Leona Lewis
- Lifehouse
- Macklemore & Ryan Lewis
- of course MAN UTD!!! - MAROON 5!!! - My Chemical Romance
- Ne-Yo
- Olly Murs
- OneRepublic
- PARACHUTE!!! - Paramore
- Rudimental
- Swedish House Mafia
- Theory Of A Deadman
- The Cab
- The Click Five
- The Script
- The Used
- Usher
iWANNA
- Latest (still):
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- ALBUMS TO YEARN FOR
---> Theory Of A Deadman - Scars & Souvenirs
---> The Cab - Symphony Soldier
---> Adele - 21
--->
from a distance...
