Hating myself right to the very core.
Why am I such a person


Can't keep on loving you from a distance...

Great, whole week now without hostel keys. Want pon lecture to finally try n get some sleep also cannot pon properly (Y).

I dont know how I'm gonna do it but I better get my fucking act back together by tmr if i really still want it. If not i can kiss my house guardian goodbye as well.


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Alvin no. 1 is not the direct opposite of Alvin no. 2.
Alvin no. 2 is just an improvement of Alvin No. 1.

An improvement i never got to show.
An improvement i have no will, no spark in me to wanna show anymore.


Can't keep on loving you from a distance...

If she's not happy being with you then yes, just let her go.
Please, and this please is to yourself Alvin, accept that.

You made things worse after that. Accept that as well, coz it's all your own misdoing. Your own merciless bad mouth that can never say things that make people happy.
Ever.
On two different people already, all my words were venom, slowly and unknowingly suffocating and killing people. First one you could still say it was misunderstanding, but now second one if same problem happens, I think it's high time to look at what the fuck is wrong with the way you speak already Alvin. There are no coincidences.

Once again, you had it in your own hands, Alvin. And you crushed it yourself time and again. Even after separate, u still can crush things even more. Wow Alvin, well done.






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To me, if it is something I can accept, I'll accept it, be it good or bad.

But too bad Alvin. Good job Alvin. You brought this all upon yourself.
Now too late already. Continue pretend somemore lor, see where it gets you next.

Once bitten twice shy never occurs to you ever hor, Alvin?

Seriously, what the fuck was I thinking these past 3 months.


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For the past few months, in fact for the relationships that i have been, this and the previous, I have always thought that if I were to just let my other half be the artist, the writer, and dictate how and what they want me to do, they would be happy with it.
I have realised over the past few days, this is not the case. It doesnt make myself very happy. But more importantly it is very tiring for my other half to be the artist and writer. So i should help myself
To help her as well.
And thats y I'm sorry for the past few months


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quality time

"I'd rather know what he does, that like he respects me enough to tell me about his work and stuff, but if he's going to tell me every location he is I'm going to be annoyed."
Oh.

"Though actually, if i had a boyfriend I'd spam him with messages every opportunity. So yeah he'd prolly know xD But i don't think anybody is as boliao so yeah."
WAHAHAHA i have such an indecisive, funny sis xD. Love u, meimei!<3 br=""> But thanks (: You're right. If one really wants to tell u stuff, he/she will eventually, even if it is a surprise. XD if never tell then just have to accept it ba.
Acceptance. We shouldn't all go around changing your other half. That is wrong. We should accept their everything, accept for who they are. The things u like, u cherish. The things u may not like, u accept, or work together to accept it together.
You can change yourself if u feel u r lacking or can improve in certain way, but u should never go change someone else.
If this is how a person is, we shld accept the person coz that's the person u first loved. Always go back to why we love our other half in the first place, and always keep that in our minds.
As long as we are genuinely ourselves, the rest is up to others to accept us for who we are.
did take me a really really long time to realise this, i know. :( but wells... better late than never ba i guess, right?

Nevertheless, xiexieni still, meimei!:D u may not see this but juz know that somewhere out there you're getting a shout out hahax. Maybe a bug or something is whispering the shoutout to u so dont kill it ar. XD

And i guess I'm just as boliao as u ba :P


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Always wondering what's happening on the other side...

Is this love? Ö


Can't keep on loving you from a distance...

Love makes us weird like that


Can't keep on loving you from a distance...

Always

With every word that I hear
Whenever whispers are near
I can believe in fate


Can't keep on loving you from a distance...

free time means finally can find a few days to go work work.


Can't keep on loving you from a distance...

Strangely enough, while everyone might be really glad for this one week of break, I'd rather not have this break now.

Too much free time, and that's not good for me.


Can't keep on loving you from a distance...

House Guardian interview in an hour's time, another reason to finger cross.

Needing finger crossing more than ever..........................

Put it aside first and concentrate please. So too for Physics this Friday please, Alvin.


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A known secret:
Something that everybody knows a thing/event exists/is happening, but nobody says it out loud.


Can't keep on loving you from a distance...

We're just ordinary people

I know from one glance this looks like another of my lyrics posts again. And most of y'all would wanna just scroll away from this.
But I urge, I plead and I beg, at least for this one, please look into every single word of it. Please.

Thanks.





Girl I'm in love with you
This ain't the honeymoon
Past the infatuation phase

Right in the thick of love
At times we get sick of love
It seems like we argue everyday

I know I misbehaved
And you made your mistakes
And we both still got room left to grow

And though love sometimes hurt
I still put you first
And we'll make this thing work
But I think, we should take it slow

We're just ordinary people
We don't know which way to go
Cause we're ordinary people
Maybe we should take it slow
Take it slow
This time we'll take it slow
Take it slow
This time we'll take it slow

This ain't a movie no
No fairytale conclusion y'all
Gets more confusing everyday
Sometimes it's heaven sent
Then we head back to hell again
We kiss and we make up on the way

I hang up you call
We rise and we fall
And we feel like just walking away

As our love advances
We take second chances
Though it's not a fantasy
I still want you to stay

We're just ordinary people
We don't know which way to go
Cause we're ordinary people
Maybe we should take it slow
Take it slow
This time we'll take it slow
Take it slow
This time we'll take it slow
Take it slow

Maybe we'll live and learn
Maybe we'll crash and burn
Maybe you'll stay maybe you'll leave maybe you'll return

Maybe another fight
Maybe we won't survive
But maybe we'll grow we never know baby you and I

We're just ordinary people
We don't know which way to go
Cause we're ordinary people
Maybe we should take it slow

We're just ordinary people
We don't know which way to go
Cause we're ordinary people
Maybe we should it take it slow
Take it slow
This time we'll take it slow
Take it slow
This time we'll take it slow
Take it slow, slow
This time we'll take it slow
Take it slow
This time we'll take
it slow.





I'm not a supporter of copy and pasting lyrics, because I think that way some meaning of lyrics will get lost or skipped unknowingly. So especially for this one, I typed it out very slowly, taking in every word in this song while I typed them out.


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I'm still waiting for your reply.

If what I said wasn't a question, I could still understand that maybe that's why there is no reply. But "To? :O" is a question, isn't it? Saying "take a long bus ride" before that, definitely ppl would ask to where one, isn't it? So why? Why do u not wanna tell me to where? I really want to know why you do not wanna tell me.

Or is it maybe cause just like the previous few days, my question is illogical? Or my question cannot be understood?
Please please please tell me why my question couldn't be answered. We both don't like uncertainty, you know that. So I really really want to know.



Well Alvin, u brought this upon yourself. You yourself broke this, and tried to recover it when in her eyes, all is too late and she's tired of all this. So now u can only be patient and wait and see.

So I will just wait for your reply. I really really want to know if there was an issue with my "To?" question.


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I feel you, bro

I realise today why I absolutely love songs by Adele and now Sam Smith. Somehow they just make me feel like I can feel their pain.



Powerhouses like Ed Sheeran and soon-to-be-a-force Josh Kaufmann tried to cover it. Even Mary J Blige sang it with SS, but they all just don't seem to have that effect than what Sam Smith sings it alone.

The kind of quiet quiet songs that just lets the voice fill the room (Y). A very transparent (I was gonna say naked here but i think nah~) and innocent side of oneself.

And it has this one particular line in his song that just makes my heart really really ache.
Guess that's just what makes them so great ba... :O

Have fun figuring that line out if y'all want guys! It aint a very long song actually... XD


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being in the know

We guess when we don't know. When we don't know why, when we don't know how.
And sometimes when we guess, answers don't turn out the way anyone would like, even if the intention is good.

So how should ppl prevent this?

Stop guessing.(Y)
Keep ppl in the know.(Y)

And make sure you're doing it coz you really want ppl to stop guessing, and from guessing the wrong things. And not coz it's an obligation to do so. I think ppl don't like to be asked the same qn of "what r u doing?" (or something along this line) time and again either, so be that change willingly.

Personally, I don't like to keep ppl guessing. If I know I'm going off to do something somewhere, I'll let them know first. Whether the other person wants to know or not is secondary. But at least if anything happen to me (touchwood!), at least got someone knows where I am.XD

But I do feel that these few days I'm starting to not keep ppl in the know already. And that's not good. On purpose? Unintentionally? I myself also don't know. But one thing's for sure, I hell don't like to do that nor be at the end of it. So I shall tune back to informing ppl. (Y) I mean, if you don't want people to do this to you, you yourself shouldn't do this to other people right?
Again, whether they wanna hear it, whether they reciprocate or not, is another issue, but at least I do my own part to keep ppl in the know.

So hopefully everyone in the world can do this, both young and old.

Woots, teaching everyone lesson in life. ^.^



~"You might think, I don't look, but deep inside in the corner..."~


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