Wednesday, March 10, 2010,
Today I had my 1st ever GP test. It was terrible enough~
But for the first time, I wasn't sad that I didn't do well for a paper. There were just too many things running through my head that I couldn't keep my focus on the paper. Not a single bit of focus on d paper at all. My mind just wasn't on the paper.
My friend even asked me why I took almost 30 mins so long to just plan out my points. I could only keep quiet and simply say too bad for me. My person was merely physically there, but definitely not mentally.
wtf am i doing? seriously, WTF am i doing?
2 tests gone and this is how it's been. I'm not blaming the paper. The paper in truth wasn't that hard. I just wasn't there, at all.
Taking a step back...a good thing? Hope so. Would doing so let people look broader, more openly? I don't know. Just never expected ever had to move back. Really hope it's a good thing~ Really.
I must say, I'm impressed by how people in my school, or at least my class, seem 2 have this special ability 2 seamlessly fit into the JC life, both school and others. But as for me, I plead, and truly plead, for time to get used to this. I'm one who really needs time to adjust to something that I've totally not expected to happen, again. So i really hope that I'd be given some time to adjust during this period too~~~
Can't keep on loving you
from a distance...
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