Feelings & emotions are 2 very big things in my life. They make up the core of me, buried deep somewhere inside me. Everything stems from feelings & emotions to me. It can make my day.
Or break it.
So imagine this. Me, digging right into them, modifying, twisting, bending, changing them. Yes, it hurts. Every night, I really can feel it being twisted inside out, folding here and there. These few nights, I even tried to study till past midnight to tire myself out, and hopefully get my mind off things. But no matter how tired I am, without fail, it still happens every night. When everyone is asleep, that's the best time I could curl myself up into a ball as tightly as possible and drop my head without anyone noticing.
Since till now, I don't know what made me deserve to be treated like an enemy, I have come to this conclusion below.
I'm an irritating, uninteresting pest.
It's come to the point, where nobody will talk me out of this.
Call me crazy, call me stupid, call me dumb, call me insane, to be doing all these.
But it's because I really want to do it for d times I have ever felt glimmers in my life, that kind of feeling dat u want to put your heart and soul in everything regarding something or someone.
A boring person like me would never have ppl who are interested to know one bit about me. Never.
If I'd disappeared from this world for an hour or more, how many ppl would actually care? Would any1 even bother to? Oh of course not, coz I've realised I no longer exist. Wow.
Just let it all sink in.
All I can say is, my friends, I have 3 words:
A lone battle.
from a distance...
