regrets~~~

Guess wad, I'm back! I've decided to make this place an uhh...place...to chronicle the most important things to me in my life, since I've already done so since, well, last posted. XD doubt it's really for anyone to enjoy to be honest, but if u wanna know how i'm feeling, sure thing. ;)

So, Saturday was one of the most fun days of my life so far. Even till now I still can't believe she accepted my invitation to come along to Wavehouse. A hint? or just me thinking too much again? :S Really hope it's the former~~~

Anyway so at Wavehouse, what was suppose to be everyone bringing one girl along turned out to be many guys from my army det and only two girls! >.< So no morals lor! Say must bring in d end all never bring >.< And so naturally, it was awkward for her to flowride with us luh. But that soon changed.

After much hesitation and coaxing XD, we both made our way to the flowride. As the saying goes, the first one is always the hardest and apparently so coz I could see in her face how awkward she's feeling luh! :S But once she got the first try out of the way and bring washed away by the waters XD, everything was WOOHOO from then on.

Oh but halfway through, her toenail was coming off so she stopped. Yes I wanted to play actually, but then seeing that she got injured because of an event I broughht her to, I myself started to lose my mood in playing as well, which is why I also wanted to just sit down there with her.

Anyway after the 1 hour flowride, the whole bunch of us went to the beach to just chillax. While the rest were ball gaming and frisbeeing, me and her just sat down there n chit chat all the way. Which was great I think. Really enjoyed talking to her. Somehow everytime I talk to her, there's this freedom and carefreeness in me that I've never really felt when I was talking to my ex. And to be honest, it's been like this since we were in sec sch~

Then we decided to dao the rest and go Old Airport Road. But rain seriously is a dampener max argh! In d end, we only had time to buy our Koi and got stuck in Chinatown. So we decided to just eat there. Hahax settled wiv snacks instead of proper meals even though we haven really had a proper meal ALL DAY XD XD XD. But at least the jiao zi were nice, and uhh filling (Y)

Then we took a long long way back home via 961. I may be a bit selfish, but it was just so that I could get more time to spend wiv her :P Surprisingly she agreed to it :)
But then I had to buy dinner home for my bro so didn't send her home all the way. Hopefully it aint gonna be a decision I will come to regret ba...

"so it's fate that brought y'all back to the same school again?"
"Yea it's fate."
When I said that, it was a mix of *hint hint* but also a bit of guilt, because at that point of time, it immediately made me recall the time when I was wiv my ex. Somehow it seemed too much of a coincidence that during that period of time when I was wiv my ex, from her blogs and smses she sounded like it was the lowest point of her life. That was when I felt my life's missing something, and I'm not going to get that feeling from my ex. This is something that has made me guilty for not being there when she was so down, and also something that I hope she can understand:

I've decided to move on to the next phase of my love life. And that person, is you.


Can't keep on loving you from a distance...