Sunday, November 08, 2009,
Why am I still asking about her and him? It's
juz lyk stepping on my own feet, making myself feel even more hopeless.
Every night, before I close my eyes, d memory of her telling me dat drifts back. No matter how tired I am that day, my mind somehow forces myself to remember dat time and again. :(I may try to be as normal as I can online, but in true fact, deep down it still hurts, it still aches. Like a ghost, it still haunts me.
I mean, wad's the use right? To her, I'm juz another of her many friends, another who talks to her, another whom she hears. Nothing more. Never did, never will.
I thought I was ready to let go of you-know-wad. But when I see her in person, I juz crumble once again. :S All the sadness juz floods back like there's no tmr.
To be honest, I think I'm nth much 2 her. Forget it, alvin.
Which further shows...this overseas trip nxt wk could be more of a boon than a bane. Hopefully.
Btw, I lecture no one. Do I ever sound like I'm lecturing? Truth is, it's hard 2 giv advice without sounding as if everything is sumting like a lecture. U hav to be kinda brutal at some times. That's how you nick the prob in the bud. But if you don't like it, I think it's best I rather nt giv any advice whatsoever in my life anymore, just 2 make sure it never ever will sound like a lecture.
To think a few days ago, I wanted to tuse Beautiful Soul by Jesse McCartney for the lyrics, and now, it has changed so drastically, along with the mood.
Cherish what you have, before it's gone b4 you even knew it happened.
confused,
Aloovi the Alv
Dear agony
Just let go of me
Suffer slowly
Is this the way it's gotta be?
Don't bury me
Faceless enemy
I'm so sorry
Is this the way it's gotta be?
Dear agony
Leave me alone, God let me go
All blue and cold, black sky will burn
Love pull me down, hate lift me up
Just turn around, there's nothing left
Somewhere far, beyond, this world
I feel nothing anymore.
Can't keep on loving you
from a distance...
09:14
